Self Reflection: Why Journaling Cures
When I think about something a little too long I almost feel like I’m doing myself a disservice. It feels like I’m torturing myself with thoughts that only happened for a moment, and I’m making them last a lifetime.
I use to journal back in high school, and I know how typical but it was my way therapy without a therapist, cause honestly I hate speaking on things out loud its a little too vulnerable for me.
However as I’m going more and more into adulthood, and I kid you not I’m 27 years old so I’m way into it now; I really think on how I need an outlet to be raw and intentional too. When I start to write I realize how I’m talking to myself, It’s my brain connecting to the pen jotting all the things it wants to say that I wouldn’t necessarily tell myself in the mirror. Let’s be honest, the mirror is scary, its the reflection of yourself you are too scared to look at on a deeper level.
This is why Journaling cures, and I want someone like myself who’s walls are up to experience what it’s like just to be heard. Let me take you through it and then you can do it on your own.
You can start off your journal however you’d like, but if you need some where to start, and it’s hard to be vulnerable on page 1 here’s something you can do that I did.
I started the first page with this Title: “Thoughts I’d Like To Erase From My Mind”
Whenever I think of my suffering, or my hardships, or insecurities; I think about how I (Me, Myself) keep reliving the same thoughts that put me there in the first place. A lot of times we need LESS time to think about things, whether that’s past, present, or future.
We need to think LESS, of what something thinks, LESS of what hurt your feelings, LESS of what could have been. It’s all been said and done.. unless its able to be altered, there’s not much to do but learn and move on.
So on this page, I started my really thinking deep in my heart about things that serve me no purpose. “I messed up that conversation” , “I could’ve did this better” , “Will it happen” , “I hate this about myself” , etc.
Everything you want gone from your mind, put it in there. Doesn’t have to be full sentences , its just page where all your thoughts can do down the drain.
I love doing this because it helps me really say my thoughts without being labeled or judged. I’m sure some people have others they can talk to, and not feel judged or questioned, but for some people like me, although I’m sure I have these people, I really don’t like saying it in the open. That is okay, and I hope you don’t feel shame for it.
Another page title I write is The Date
Just an entry, no grand title, no purpose. Just what’s on your mind, for me when I start with the date, and I just start writing what comes to mind, I heal myself in this process. I go from “I’m so excited” to self doubt.. that is when I realize; “Oh shit Mia” you should probably see how you can change your mindset, and I do. It becomes a conversation with yourself. From What interest you, to what makes you feel scared about it, to what you CAN do.
And if none of this is helping you find the cure you need well.. I know a good Doctor.
But seriously,
Take the first step of being honest with yourself, and vulnerable. You vs. You is powerful and it’ll be the biggest person between your dreams one day.
Since I’m getting back into journaling there’s not much advice on the topic more that I can give, but just know that it is the cure, or the start of it.
